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Reasons

Posted in Ramblings with tags , , , on 2010/04/05 by R L Burns

 

my inability to express,

to ANYONE,

in any meaningful way,

my reasons for wanting

to go to the midwest

is making me more insane than ever

somehow i failed to make amyone see

that for me,

it was all about taking a little bit of control

over a situation that has nearly been

my ruination

going there was, to me,

the way to close the iron door on IT,

instead of having it slammed on me.

i could go there and see the things i’d loved

and walk away from them, on my terms,

not someone else’s

but i was unable to convince anyone

that going made sense, is the only thing

that might allow me to put it all away,

put it in some sort of perspective with which i can live

and, hell, if i was going to kill myself,

which many seem to think

was my REAL reason for wanting to go,

i’d already be dead.

i had kind of thought that going

might help me live

and after a mini-stroke, well,

i wanted to go before the bigger one

after which it won’t be possible

The Vote Goes Against Me & Blah, Blah, Bleh

Posted in Ramblings with tags , , on 2010/04/05 by R L Burns

 

Waiting to meet with Dr. B. was pointless, as I knew it would be.

I knew what she would say before I even entered the building.

She was harsh. 

I got angry and cried –  which only proved her point (in her eyes).

So…whatever.

Plans cancelled.

Everyone happy now?

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blah, blah, bleh

blah, blah, bleh

sallyrimble, sallyrimble,

blah, blah, bleh.

 

(just an odd set of words that keep running through my head)