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Still…

Posted in life story, Loss of Hope, Poetry, Ramblings with tags , , , , on 2011/05/25 by R L Burns

it’s wrong and it’s lame

cuz to you it was all just a game –

so how can I feel the same

way I did when I carved your name’s

first initial into my palm?

what is wrong in my brain,

in my heart – why does the pain

loiter and remain

drowning me – a hurricane

that possesses me, obsesses me?

i just keep telling myself those

christina perri lyrics…

I learned to live

half a life…

and who do you think you are,

runnin’ round leaving scars,

collecting your jar of hearts

and tearing love apart?

you’re gonna catch a  cold

from the ice inside your soul…

so don’t come back for me

don’t come back at all.

 

and yet the thought of that

terrifies me more than anything…

and i STILL don’t know what i did wrong…

Home of my Soul

Posted in Poetry, Ramblings with tags , , , , on 2010/01/12 by R L Burns

For some time now

i have been unable to dream

clearly

of the place where my soul dwells

 

occasionally i float

in that direction, but then

an iron portcullis

bars my way and returns me

here

 

last night – and on saturday –

i dreamed once again

of my heart

my soul

the place where it is free

and

a burning need

to stand in those shadows again

has filled me

since then

 

unable to dream

myself there

whenever i wish

has made me decide

i will take myself there

once again –

face down the iron gate

that holds me here

 

back to the lake,

the spring,

the plains and the fields

of sweet william…

the whisper of the wind

in the lonely oak trees…

and the gift of the ancestors – 

my once lost ring

 

no longer can i

ignore my heart’s pull –

so back to my soul’s home

i will go…

 

when spring finally comes