Response I Received to “Twin Souls of Discontent”
I received the following in response to my “Twins Souls of Discontent” stream-of-consciousness-bore-you-to-tears recent post. It came from someone close to me who has known me forever, knew him, and was aware of the current situation. After I wrote the piece, I sent it to her to ask if it made sense…
I decided to share her reply because…well, over recent months, as I have whinged on and on about my depression, I have heard from many people who have been through similar circumstances. I have read things that let me know other people have faced the same demons which I have faced (and still do). Many wonderful people have said many wonderful, kind, helpful things to me, including the person who sent me the piece below. But somehow, maybe it’s the timing, these words, while they made me sad, also truly helped me, in some weird way, put things into a better perspective and I have truly felt quite a bit better since I read them. I am sharing them in the hope that perhaps they will be meaningful to someone who finds themselves caught in the same mental trap…
“Pay it forward”, isn’t that a good rule to live by?
Yes it makes sense.
Only one problem with your story: I do not believe you were the only betrayal or infidelity he committed in 25 years. That fucking guy is a fucking liar and then some. Please don’t romanticize his character so much. He lies daily and now has even more to hide from those around him. You on the other hand are being, and have been, very honest and straight forward about your feelings and previous intentions. They were REAL to you absolutely and without a doubt. So that said, remember: he hasn’t really come in person to you when he had the chance. Instead, he threw it away and cast it aside and ran as fast as he could..
He does not define you. He was a part of your time on earth.
Learn that liars cannot be trusted no matter how terrific you think they are. They are incapable of being honest.
He is still lying his ass off to his family and friends.
He lives a LIE.
You can keep acting like he destroyed you, but his own fucking words were, and I quote, “IT WAS ALL A LIE” . Believe that for a flipping change okay? I know it is hard because he was so damn convincing; but most liars are very good at it and that’s no accident. They practice their craft like athletes exercise.
Do not buy the fucking lie from the fucking guy he tells them to everyone: oh I’m dying….I’m so unhappy here…..my marriage has been a lie ….my son is suicidal…I’m suicidal….I want to be a teacher….You cant go to work today with me because…….
Oh yeah, because I am a fucking A-list liar and you have made my dreams come true by being here but I have no guilt as a shameless liar. I will lie to myself and tell myself that this was all your idea and you better stop now???
Parts of it were true but he’s right about it being a lie to him and then in turn, to you.
YOU ARE WAY TOO GOOD FOR HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It’s time for you to run away from his bullshit and stop blaming yourself for being conned by the conman.
I love you forever! NO LIE!!