Does it ever end??
really, you’d think, after all the past years of being ill that i would be used to it. you’d think that – but you’d be wrong.
you’d think, that after all the surgeries and visits to the very door of death over the past nine years i would no longer be surprised. you’d think that – but you’d be wrong.
for days now, a massive, horrifyingly horrible headache has raged through my head. the worst headache i have had in years — and i’ve had a few doozys! (is that even really a word or just something aunt bea used to say on the andy griffith show?) my neck has been stiff, my vision blurry; lights and sounds are crushing. but the pain was all over, not centered to one side like a normal migraine. no pain killer in my fairly large arsenal even touched it. so today i went to the doctor. couldn’t stand it anymore.
probably a migraine she said as she shot me up with toridol. ah, at last, a little relief. but maybe not, she muttered.
she gave me somed scripts and a couple of samples and sent me home with a note for work to stay home tomorrow, too. if my headache isn’t better tomorrow, it’s off to the imaging place i go for an mri – let’s just make sure it’s not an aneurysm or anything else…whatever.
how could everything in my life have been turning around to wonderful just a little over a year ago and now, it’s all gone back to shit? i don’t get it.
i bought three silver charms yesterday and put them on a new silver chain. now on my neck i still have my jillion-year-old ankh that HE gave me and another chain holding my new charms (in order): a guitar, a drum kit, and a guitar. to represent “the band”….how retarded am i? pretty retarded, i know.
i’m done complaining for now. maybe.